Then on Sunday I will be doing something so out of my comfort zone that I am totally freaked out and scared out my mind. I am auditioning for Listen to your Mother NYC , it's a show where people read stories on aspects of motherhood! I saw someone post the call for auditions on twitter like a month ago, I followed the link and the next thing I know I was sending out an email and booking and audition. Now I am so scared you guys it's not even funny. I wrote my piece in one day, I sent it to my sister, and she edited for me but I haven't read it to anyone out loud, and I have to read it on Sunday to a room of people to see if they pick me. Did I mention I am TERRIFIED! I am and to top it off there are so many other things I want to talk and write about that now I am second guessing myself! I know I will do fine and at this point I really don't care if I get picked or not for the big show. I did something that is so not like me. One I followed through on something, well at least I will when I audition on Sunday. I am stepping out my comfort zone and trying new things.
This is why this weekend is a turning point for me. For years I have "talked" about going back to school but always made an excuse as to why I couldn't, Layla was too little, I was pregnant with Ava, I have no time, I have no money! All were common in my house but this year I just said the hell with it, I needed to go back to school, I needed to find some kind of focus on what I wanted to do and dammit it feels good! I am going to school for a specific purpose and I can see my goal as very attainable! Also auditioning for this show is so out of character for me, it really feels good to just do something because you know it feels right. I want to take my writing and this blog to another level and this is the path to do it! At the end of the day I can finally say I tried! Where in the past my fear stopped me from doing things like this now I can say, I set out to do something and I did it! Feels really good I must say!