That lil' lady right there is going to be the big 5 in April!!!! I can't believe it! Did I mention I am due in April and my other lil' lady's birthday is also in April!!!! I really try to make every birthday they have special! Due to the fact that this is her BIG 5TH BIRTHDAY!!!! We are going to take her out with her cousins and have a great day out bowling!!! She is so excited!
The thing is... I am due April 21st and this Birthday Extravaganza is April 13th. Can you see where I am going with this!!!! I was early for both girls what if I am in labor or in the hospital with Spawn #3. Can I multitask my labor??? LOL I really want to be there for her and I really want her to have a birthday that is great and she has a great time! I booked the birthday and I designated a substitute hostess just in case I am in the hospital or have to stay home with a newborn!!! I have even gone to the extreme of telling my husband that it doesn't matter if I am in labor leave me in the hospital and go celebrate with Layla!!! (Is that too much!!!!) That is what made my friend coin the term "multitasking my labor"!!! I just love that!
Thing is that lately I been feeling like I am wearing myself too thin! I have my two girls, my husband, my job and our home! I am 35 weeks pregnant, I have to go to fetal monitoring twice a week on top of high risk doctors and my regular doctors and I am going to school! I really feel like everyday is something new and then, to top it off I feel like I am letting some people down. Like no matter what I do, its not enough!
I know its impossible to make everyone happy. And really that should not be my priority but the thing is when you are being told that you not coming up to snuff, you tend to question yourself, especially when you are an emotional pregnant mess! LOL. I know I am being unrealistic with my expectations of myself. I know I am doing a lot and doing a great job! Just today at this moment I feel deflated and the idea of missing a birthday for one of my kids just makes me feel like I need to do everything to make sure that if I have to miss it I am not missed! UGH am I making any sense. I feel like I am rambling.
Hopefully this feeling will go away! I only have a few more weeks to go and he will be here with us! We are doing great! He is doing awesome, weighing in at 5 pounds 7 ounces at the last fetal monitoring appointment so he is already on his way to being bigger at birth than my daughters!
I am a big fan of Modern Family and this whole birthday situation reminds me of the episode that Gloria is in labor but tries to hold it in because it's her son's birthday!!! I would totally try and do that!!! I couldn't find that clip but I did find a montage clip of all of ABC favorite moments of her pregnancy!!! So here it goes enjoy!